យ៉ាងហោចណាស់ ខ្ញុំត្រូវមានអ្វីមួយប្រសើរជាងគេ.

In Uncategorized on February 1, 2013 by hengkrishnaaa




Moscow vs Phnom Penh: Differences

In Uncategorized on May 10, 2017 by hengkrishnaaa

Today is Thursday 10th May  2017. I am here in Phnom Penh.
It is Spring in Moscow. However, it is a bit strange because snow is still coming down in Moscow these few days….

Spring – the symbol of hope and the most beautiful season of the year. It is the moment when the new and tender leaves come out in the branches of the trees.  As soon as the spring comes, birds break their silence throughout the cool winter and start singing again. Along the roads to my apartment on Leninski avenue and along the way to my dorm No.5 near the  campus of the university the trees and flowers are in bloom. The nature is at its best with greenery everywhere. I did enjoy this beautiful moment of my student life. The student life in Moscow is the unforgettable moment! It is still in my thought and memory.

Life in Phnom Penh is another story….

Days are flying away terribly fast. It is almost 3 years since the very first day that my footprints have left on the soil of this country and breathed its air under the blue bright sky again after more than 7 years I was far away.

Every day in Phnom Penh is almost the same. Get up in the morning and go to work. The current work that is under the question mark …. What am I doing here? What i receive from this useless stuffs? Or just to kill the time? Or i just stand, do nothing for family and just look at my beloved wife while she tries her very best to earn money ?

Papers on the table… and at the end of the month – receive nothing.  Or it is just like when people are too comfortable with something, that feeling of safety is similar to that of boredom? Frankly speaking,  recently I often feel bored. Days and months are disappearing into Buddha’s hands and only Him who knows where ceaselessly….


If you’re going thru hell, keep going!

In Uncategorized on June 7, 2016 by hengkrishnaaa

I don’t write here regularly anymore. I find it hard to write anything coz nothing interesting happened lately.. so yah..  sometimes life is indeed pretty boring and challenging….  but well, I should be happy with it though! I am blessing and thankful bcos I have a caring and supportive wife…I have a warm family and a wonderful mother. Even we don’t have much money (believe me, you’ll never be enough with this thing no matter how much you have!)  but at least I do enjoy life with what I have in hands. It doesn’t mean I am not ambitious and carefree! I do have many dream for myself and my families…I still remember vividly those dream in my mind. I do care of my families’ future. Needless to say, I am the only one who have to be responsible for realizing those dream!

Life is not always beautiful and easy as we expect it to be! There are days when everything seems to go wrong and complaining about those bad things is the last better choice. Of course, people know clearly that it’s easier to complain what we don’t want to happen instead of fixing the problem. However, nothing better changes by complaining but it only ruins and complicates the situation and the problem. Do not get stuck in this current mood. The rainbow will appear at the end of the tunnel. Keep going even you’re going thru mud or hell! …That is definitely easier said than done. But do it for the sake of your own happiness!



Learning to Go With the Flow

In Uncategorized on March 30, 2016 by hengkrishnaaa

Just looked into the mirror in my office and saw an unshaven face of a man! Well, it’s me!  People start calling me “a married man” since the first day of my wedding.  I am almost 30-year-old now. Time flies so fast! I feel as if I didn’t pass my golden age (20-27). I spent my youth time abroad in the Eastern Europe. I did enjoy my boundless freedom and did enjoy with what I had in hands. A very big part of me has been influenced by Russians and mixed culture.  It is already 20th month since the very first day I returned back home. I have been shocked with many things happening in this society! Sometimes, I have to calm myself to accept what God wants me to be and learn to go with the flow. Sometimes, I think I am an outsider or an alien in this country. Perhaps, it is one of the consequences of learning abroad. You will sometimes find yourself different from your native people. 20 months in this kingdom, I still cannot find the permanent place to stand for my big dream besides those places where I am not proud to be in. 



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In Uncategorized on March 1, 2016 by hengkrishnaaa

គេថា​ បើនៅចង់សប្បាយ​ ចូរកុំទាន់ចង់រៀបការ។​  ការសប្បាយអាចថា​ សប្បាយនឹងការស៊ីផឹក​  បនភឿន​ សប្បាយនឹងការរាំរែកក្នុងក្លឹប​ ឬ​សប្បាយនឹងការដើេរហើរ​ត្រាច់រង្កៀតដូចជីវិតនៅលីវ​ ជាដើម​។​ ​  វាជាការល្អ​ រក្សាភាពនៅលីវ​ ប្រសិនអ្នកទាំងឡាយណាត្រូវការភាពសប្បាយទាំងនេះ។​  

កម្លាំងចិត្ត​ និង​ សេចក្តីស្រឡាញ់​ ជាប្រភពនៃអច្ឆរិយៈ។​  គេពិបាកជឿស្ត្រីម្នាក់អាចលើករថយន្តរួច។​  តែខណៈមួយនៅពេលកូនជាទីស្រឡាញ់ជាប់ក្រោមរថយន្ត​ មិនដឹងជាកម្លាំងមកពីណាដែលធ្វើអោយស្ត្រីជាម្តាយនេះ​ លើករថយន្តរួច។​  ករណីនេះមិនខុសពីខ្ញុំ។​  ចម្ងាយពីស្ពានជ្រោយចង្វារមកព្រះបរមរាជវាំង​ ពិតជាឆ្ងាយណាស់ក្នុងពេលនោះ​ ប៉ុន្តែម្សិលមិញពីជាយដែនព្រះវិហារ​មកភ្នំពេញទាំងកណ្តាលយប់​ដើម្បីបានត្រលប់ជួបភរិយា​ ខ្ញុំបែរជាមិនគិតថាឆ្ងាយទាល់តែសោះ។​  នោះគឺដោយសារសេចក្តីស្រឡាញ់ដ៏ជ្រាលជ្រៅ​ និង​ ការបារម្ភនៅពេលដែលភរិយានៅតែម្នាក់ឯង។​  ទោះជាគេអោយឪកាសខ្ញុំគេងក្នុងសណ្ឋាគារប្រណិត​ឬរហូតដល់រាជវាំងនៃព្រះមហាក្សត្រក៏ពុំមានតម្លៃស្មើនឹងគ្រែគេងធម្មតាមួយដែលមានភរិយាខ្ញុំគេងនៅក្បែរនឹងដើមទ្រូង។​  



In Uncategorized on February 14, 2016 by hengkrishnaaa

ម៉ោងថ្មើនេះជិត​ ១១​ យប់​។​  នាងតូចសម្លាញ់កំពុងគេងលក់យ៉ាងស្កប់ស្កល់​ ជាមួយភ្លេងតិចៗ​។​  ថ្ងៃនេះនាងតូចឈី​ ក្តៅខ្លួនសីតុណ្ហភាព​ ៣៨.៥។​  មិនស្កប់ក្នុងចិត្តសោះនៅពេលការឈី​ ឬអ្វីទាស់រមាស់កើតឡើងជាមួយមនុស្សជាទីស្រឡាញ់។​

 ថ្ងៃនេះមិនបានចេញទៅណាទេ​  ហាក់ខ្ជិលៗមិនចង់ចេញទៅណា​ ។​  ឆ្នាំនេះ​  ជំនួសផ្កា​ ខ្ញុំបានធ្វើម្ហូបសម្រាប់នាងតូច។​  តាមពិតបានទូរសព្ទទៅកន្លែងលក់ផ្កាដែរ​ បម្រុងផ្កា​ សម្រាប់នាងតូច។​ ប៉ុន្តែមិនមានផ្កា sun flower tulip និង​ peony ។​ 



In Uncategorized on February 1, 2016 by hengkrishnaaa

ជួបគ្នាសារជាថ្មី​ទីក្រុងតោ​ ។​  ត្រូវនៅទីនេះរយះពេលបីថ្ងៃដើម្បីអមដំណើរប៉ាម៉ាក់ព្យាបាលជំងឺ។​   គិតទៅ​ មានរូបគឺត្រូវមានទុក្ខ។​  គ្រាន់តែថា​  ទុក្ខនោះមាន​ប្រភេទ​ និង​ ទម្ងន់របស់វា។​ ខ្ញុំទើបតែយល់កាន់តែច្បាស់ថា​ ក្នុងមួយជីវិតមនុស្សមានឪពុកម្តាយបួន​ ពោលគឺម្តាយពីរ​  និង​ ឪពុកពីរ។​  ជាកូនបង្កើត​និងកូនប្រសារ​ មានន័យតែមួយ​ គឺជាកូន។  ឪពុកបង្កើត​ និងឪពុកក្មេក​ គឺមានតម្លៃគោរពស្មើគ្នា​ ។​ យ៉ាងណា​ មិនប្រាកដថា​ កូនប្រសារទំាងអស់សុទ្ធតែគិតដូចនេះ​  ត្បិតនេះអាស្រ័យទៅនឹងសន្តាន​ និង​ ការអធ្យាស្រ័យរបស់ពួកគេម្នាក់ៗ។​  

ថ្ងៃនេះដើរតាមផ្លូវជួបកូនស្រីតូចម្នាក់​ដើរជាមួយឪពុក​ម្តាយគេ។​   មុខគួរអោយស្រឡាញ់ណាស់។​ ខ្ញុំនឹកភ្នកដល់ពេលមួយ​ ដែលខ្ញុំនិងនាងតូចមានកូនស្រីជាមួយគ្នា។​  ទោះនៅឆ្ងាយពីគ្នា​  នាងតូចរមែងនៅក្នុងការគិតរបស់ខ្ញុំ​ គ្រប់ទីកន្លែង។​  នាងជាផ្ទះដ៏កក់ក្តៅរបស់ខ្ញុំ។​