Letter From Phnom Penh: Endless Love

My beloved krishna,

Letter from Phnom Penh 001
( darling, just click here. Tell me if it doesn’t work.)

Thank you so much for letter(s) in form of PDF. I’m going to keep them as our love letters and our great memoires. I’m sure that It will be a great collection for our children, right?

Thanks again darling for sending me an interesting letter and Software of PDFcreator.

Let’s enjoy reading my letter ( Mine is longer than yours!)

The endless love,

sikar tevie

Bondam Neak Tmor ( Message From Angkorian Naga )

  

Oh My Khmer Children ! Listen to me carefully,

I am [ Angkorian Naga ]  an emblem and a protector of your country. I stand firmly in your country, Cambodia.  Even It rains all nights and days, even the weather it’s dry;The sun so hot I froze to death,
My Khmer Children don’t you cry ! I stand for greater and more glorious achievement than can be found in recorded history, but you must be my inspiration.Cambodia, land where my fathers died. Oh my Khmer children, I only regret that I have but one life to lose for your country, Cambodia !  I was born an Angkorian Naga; I live a Cambodian ; I shall die a Cambodian. Cambodianism means the virtues of courage, honor, justice, truth, sincerity, and hardihood — the virtues that made Cambodia. I have pride to be born as Cambodian Naga !  Let every nation know, whether it wishes us well or ill, that we shall pay any price, bear any burden, meet any hardship, support any friend, oppose any foe, to assure the survival and success of our freedom, our territory and glory.

             

Cambodian Girls and Cambodian Guys ! I’ll always stand up to prevent your country  ! I’ll always stand up to prevent your national heritage ! I’ll always stand up to prevent your national prestige !  You should always remember the devotion of your national heroes. You should know that there’s a lot of men dead for you ! to make you sleep in peace at night when you lay down your head. I still standing firmly in your territory. I prevent your country, Cambodia ! Don’t you cry for my devotion ?  I promise you, My Beloved Children, that I will never let anyone cause you pain; And my life, it will be yours forever ! But I am what you make me. I am purity if you are pure. I am bravery if you are brave. I am loyalty if you are loyal.

Buddha bless Cambodia, land that I love, Stand beside her, and guide her, Through the night, with the light  from above, from Angkor, From the mountains, From the oceans…. ! God bless Cambodia, my home sweet home !

Letter From Moscow: Darling I Miss You !

Dear dearest darling tevie,

Letter From Moscow 001 (Darling,pls click here….It’s for you)

I hope that you will suprise with the change of my letter. Let’s enjoy reading.

I’m waiting for your reply.

with my deeply love to you,

heng krishna

Justice….or… Injustice

sousdey mitt samlanh Kdei songkhim, tngai nis nhom mean rerng brab eing tead hery. Som tos na pros ey seavphov del nhom sorsee orss batt tov hery.. tngai sa ek terp tov supermarket tinh. Lov oy nhom sorse brab eing pi ey ey del kirt lerng ngai nis( nhom mean arorm free men ten nov pel ban mow share cheamoy eing online beb nis. Bror hel nis chea komnitt la or myang del, del nhom kou ter nyeay cheamoy eing. pros kmen norna skorl yerng taiing py neak nos teh. Tos bei chea pouk keh skorl yerng kor kmen pahnha ey der, ppros ey lov chivit nhom free ^^ )

ngai nis nhom os komlang nas somlanh! ngai nis nov mohavichealai 8h ror ta pel nham bai steu kmen sors… jinh py lecture moy jol lecture moy…. jinh py seminar moy jol seminar moy… chivit oy ta beb nis rohott nerng.. kirt mow cheat nis moha somnang bomphort …./ samlanh Kdei songkhim robos knea, tampet hov nhom lazy yor ta men ten hery knong kar sorsee diary everyday beb nis… but ngai nis have s.th interesting….

orss royak pel 2 chnam hery del nhom ban pror kan yor komnitt moy tha @ tver tam avey del neak dor tei want ! @

kar pror kan komnit nis tver oy nhom trov der jinh OR kor trov give up avey del nhom jong ban tous chea robors nos tich OR toch kor doy.
ngai nis nhom ban idea dor somkhann somrap chivit om py peak tha JUSTICE.

last week, somlanh kdeysangkhim, derng heh tha men ey happen te? jam nhom brab< after lecture nhom ban som professor nov summary lecture economics ney lessson robor him to copy. professor gave me for free… nhom ban nyeay prab om py kar lombak del men sov yol lesson robors kortt. nhom ban ask professor to give me a summary of lessons.. and professor agree cheamoy nhom. he promised to give me every lessons this week for free/ see heh, how clever i am ^^!

this week after lecture he gave me all lectures from lesson4 to lesson 7 for free to read n prepare at home post-lectures.

all foreign students ( foreign in my class from korea, senegal, braizil, nigaragor, macedonia, albania, afganistan, irak,….) asked to copy all these lectures.

As i estimate, it costs around 8 or 10 $ for these lessons.

One of my classmate from north korea ( i can say she is a clever girl but Mao svitt girl ^^).. c asked me… hey, guy all these lessons professor gave them all to you for free? why only you ? how about us ? we”re also foreign students ! then all guys around us started looking at me…the way horrible…! ( i know they support her, because if she can persuade ( maybe should say ROB Me !!! ) me all of them will get interest( s.th like, they can save 5$ from spending copy to pay for lunch for their girls…?)

samlanh kdey sangkhim now i review what korean student argue with me:

Korean student: guy, professor gave these lessons to u ?
Me: yes.
Ks: y only u ?
Me: cos i ask him.
Ks: it”s injustice!!! y u can get it free…. if i were in ur place, i'd share to other ( Kdeysongkhim, maybe she didn't remember last week, she took all lessons without telling anyone as hers from professor of international law)…example the 1st lecture is u, 2nd lecture is for me, 3rd for Marie, 4th…. don't u think it's injustice if u take only u for free such this?!
Me: No, it's justice.
Ks: u know, we r students of international relation, in the future we could be leaders of our country…y u do such injustice thing ? u have to have 70 touleay., Yothithor,….
Me:No, i dont want to be a leader or diplomat like u, it’s just ur ambition .for me, just a simple people. Anyway,what is Justice for u ?
Ks: Justice is kar share, kar tver avey del min selfish….nyeay chea roum avey del monus pheak chrern yol tha la or!
Me: good. So what u 1 from me ?
Ks: I just want u to share with US like i already said the 1st lecture is urs, 2nd is mine…so on ( somlanh kdeysangkhim, nhom min derng tha the word US mean all foreign students or only for her! )
Me: ok, it's what u think justice, ri? Let's me share some idea with u. ur Justice is for only u ! but for me, it's not. Let's think with me: after lecture Me tov alone to ask all doc, where u were that time? No, didn't see u. myang tead professor told that he gave all lectures to me, if s1 need them pls ask Me to make copy. So vea chea avey del nhom think that what i do is justice.
Ok, now if u think it's injustice so let me pay it for u! ( nhom look to her eyes ^^)

Ks: No, No, i dont need u to pay. I just feel that something unfair…
Me: so ?

somlanh ery kar nyeay nis tver oy nhom want to no avey tov jea Justice ? nhom kroan ta derng tha Justice mean ney somrap mnos/group of people/ country del ban interest pon nos….

somlanh, nhom keng hery naa… chop knea sa ek…^^

py mitt samlanh robos eing,

National Anthem Of Cambodia

                             
Lyrics in Khmer

Translation from khmer

Som pouk tepda rak sa moha khsath yeung
Oy ben roung roeung doy chey monkol srey soursdey
Yeung Khnom preah ang som chrok Krom molup preah Baromey
Ney preah Noropdey vong Khsattra del sang preah sat thm­r
Kroup Kraung dèn Khmer borann thkoeung thkann.

Prasath séla kombang kan dal prey
Kuor oy sr­may noeuk d­l yuos sak Moha Nokor
Cheat Khmer dauch Thmar kong vong n­y l­ar rung peung chom hor.
Yeung sang Khim por pheap preng samnang robuos Kampuchea.
Moha r­th koeut mien you ang veanh hey.

Kroup vath aram lu tè so sap thoeur
Sot doy am no rom lik koun poth sasna
Chol yeung chea neak thioeur thiak smos smak tam bep donnta
Kong tè thévoda nùng chuoy chrom chrèng phkot phkang pra yoch oy
Dol prateah Khmer chea Moha Nokor

Lyrics in French

Que le ciel protège notre Roi
Et lui dispense le bonheur et la gloire.
Qu’il règne sur nos coeurs et sur nos destinées,
Celui qui, héritier des Souverains bâtisseurs,
Gouverne le fier et vieux Royaume.

Les temples dorment dans la forêt,
Rappelant la grandeur du Moha Nokor.
Comme le roc, la race khmère est éternelle,
Ayons cofiance dans le sort du Campuchéa,
L’Empire qui défie les années.

Les chants montent dans le pagodes
A la gloire de la Sainte foi Bouddhique.
Soyons fidèles aux croyances de nos pères.
Ainsi le ciel prodiguera-t-il tous ses bienfaits
Au vieux pays khmer, le Moha Nokor.

Lyrics in English

Heaven protects our King
And gives him happiness and glory
To reign over our souls and our destinies,
The one being, heir of the Sovereign builders,
Guiding the proud old Kingdom.

Temples are asleep in the forest,
Remembering the splendour of Moha Nokor.
Like a rock the Khmer race is eternal.
Let us trust in the fate of Campuchea,
The empire which challenges the ages.

Songs rise up from the pagodas
To the glory of holy buddhistic faith.
Let us be faithful to our ancestors’ belief.
Thus heaven will lavish its bounty
Towards the ancient Khmer country, the Moha Nokor.

 Lyrics: His Highness Patriarch Chuon Nat (1883-1969).  Adopted: 1941.

                                          

                                                 Historical Background

The song derives its name from an ancient Khmer kingdom.  Its music was adapted from an old folk tune.  The country originally adopted this anthem in 1941, but it was replaced after the Communist Khmer Rouge took over in 1976.  “Nokoreach” was restored in 1993, when Cambodia became a constitutional monarchy. 

 

Truly Great Friends Are Hard To Find, Difficult To Leave, And Impossible To Forget

 

Sir. Khem Chamrong ( Called Lok Mjas Krong- Hunter …..( Whisky ? )

(left to right)  Sophea, Sokneang, Linda, Sambath

The Last Day Of Study-Tour To Siam Reap

 

(1st line-left to right)sopheary,keam,sambo,linda,sokneang,Sis.sophea,Sis.leakhena,seila,sambath,bunnwat,h.leng,mony

(2nd line)-new friend,darapy,theavy,malab,Sis.maryan,dyna,sambath,chivorn,sovathana

(3rd) siam reap official, meng,dalis,siem,hokchhay,darapong

(the last line) soknaron, prof.heang sang, ? , janith,kongkear,nareth,lyda, ? , piden,Prof. kim narin, tech. chomnan.  

                                    

                                        Ms. Keo Ratanatepy

                               

                                     Ms. Chhoeun Somonnleakhena

 

                           

            ( Left to Right ) Vutha, Pisey , Socheata, Phearak,  H. Leng

                           

                                   Major. Tha Sanhchivorn

                              

                                   My friends during their trip to Chambork,Cambodia

                                       

                                     Ms. Diep Chansophea

                  HIgh School ClassMates, Russey Keo High School

                

( First Line- Left to Right ): Kim Hak, Ream Daro, T. Chanrithy, S. Phearoth,C. Saoden, C. Sophal, L. kompheak, C. Sothea, C. Amnot, S. Kakada, S. kompheak, K. Ekvitou

( Second Line ): P. Phalla, Kim Kanh, K. Maryda, H.Monokanha, N. Nearyroth, S. Sothea, P. Nimol, T. Kongkea, K. Chanty, S. Sokuntheary, S. Soksreymom, A. Tithearny, C. Panharoth, E. Leakhena, C. Sreyoeun, B. Sokheng, L. Molin, D.Dalin, H. Soriya, T. Sophalika.

( Third Line ): O. Pisey, S. Dara, T. Bondos, T. Sokeng, C. Chorporn, H. Channeth, L. Hour, C. Rachna, K. Ratanatepy, S. Narin, T. Lina, T. Nearadey, K. Dany, C. Sokleng, Ng. Rachna, E. HLeng.

( Last Line ): T. Kimchhe, K. Chamrong, V. Sichann, S. Dara, T. Sanhchivorn, M. Rafat, K. Rachna, H. Vibol, S. Senmonorom, H. Lynith.

                                       

                         

                                     Ms. Ly Ratana

                        

  ( left-right ) Ms. Keo Ratanatepy, Ms.( Komarey ) Chan Rachna, Ms. Ly Hour

 

Amnoth, a future engineer

* when my friends view this page, i hope, i will receive photos from him/her soon…..

 

( I am going to take this page to dedicate to all my friends who always dans ma memoire tout les jours.  For me, it is not important to whom i post  photos first or last, but the most important they are my friends !

 

( To Be Continued… ) 

I Beg You Please Send Me Your Photo. Your Photo Is Important To Me To Complete This  Page. Now I can not complete this page without you.

 

Letter From Phnom Penh: It’s Not Bad Luck, But Just Good Chance !

Dear dearest krishna,

I received your letter this morning. It’s a pity that the result of your exam was not successful. Maybe your preparation period was not long enough because of your sickness. Although you say to yourself, it doesn’t matter, I imagine that the fact that you didn’t succeed, somehow affects or shadows your present mental condition, at least unconsciously. For, our mood is so easily influenced by such a small thing in our daily life. But anyway I wish you would succeed in it next time. I hope you are already out of depression when you read this letter, but if you are not, I feel sorry for you. During the time you were in Cambodia, I never saw you depressed as you are now in your last letter and you always overwhelmed me by speaking of depression so vigorously. But I know that you have the ability to ‘play with’ the depression when it comes, instead of being defeated by it completely. However, I was so surprised when you wrote such these phrases: you are getting tired of life, tired of living there, tired of sickness, tired of weakness…etc. I hope that your strength to struggle is much stronger than your “degree of ‘getting tired of everything’ “. I wonder what’s the real problem that makes you said that you feel ’something like extremely tired’ with living in Moscow. I imagine that when you’ve got completely used to one thing, you begin to feel dissatisfied with the status quo and to seek for something new. But I think it would be better not to quit all the comfortable things in your present life. It’s only one year since you have been settled down there in Russia. Dearest darling ! Actually, I don’t understand what’s happening with you now. Are you sick ? or are you missing family ? / From your last letter I cannot make a clear conclusion besides the idea that you are sick and going to have a medical treatment in hospital for along period of time. Is it right ? Tell me pls, darling ! I really want to know what you mean in your last letter. Darling ! If my conclusion is right please take care yourself. Don’t think too much it will be better. It’s not bad luck, but you have to think that it’s good chance for you to find out the meaning of life, the meaning of struggle and the meaning of helping you by yourself. Darling krishna, I have a fairy tale of the 3 princes to tell you. Pls read it and consider the moral of the tale: Long time ago, there were three princes lived in a kingdom– Indrabatr Borei. These 3 princes traveled around, coming upon experience after experience of misfortune and seeming disaster in the lives of others. But as a result of their visits and the happy discoveries they made, the disasters or tragedies were turned into greater successes and happinesses than before. On one occasion, the three princes came to a farmhouse where an unfortunate accident had taken place. The farmer’s only son had been thrown from the farmer’s only horse and had broken his leg. The horse had then run off and could not be found. The farmer was quite distressed, but the three princes told him not to worry, “It’s too soon to judge; something good will happen.” This country happened to be involved in a war at that time with a neighboring country. The next morning, a squad of soldiers arrived at the house to forcefully conscript all young, able-bodied men into the army. As it happened, the farmer’s only son had a broken leg so he was spared from conscription. Later that day, representatives of the government came by to seize all horses that could be used by the army. But since their only horse had run off, again the farmer was spared. Later, the army lost a great battle and most of the men and horses were killed. What appeared to be an unfortunate event, the breaking of the leg and the escape of the horse, turned out to be the salvation of the farmer. Some time later, after the war, the horse came home of its own accord, leading several other wild horses. The son’s leg soon mended. And the farmer was happy. An apparent disaster turned out to be a series of blessings in disguise.

Dearest darling, I think that this sort of thing will happen to you as well this time if you allow it and you look for it. Sometimes, your sickness this time would bring you some good lucks that no one knows. Well, now it’s midnight, darling. I have to go to bed now. So I finish my letter here. I hope that even you’re in hospital, you can receive and read it with the satisfaction.

With my deeply love,

sikar tevie

P.S. Be strong darling ! It’s not your misfortune, but it’s just the test !

Letter From Phnom Penh: Two heads One Heart

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Saturday November 15, 2008

Dear krishna,

By the time this letter reaches you, I hope that your first exam on November has been over; though if you’re still in its process, I wish you a good luck.
Thank you very much for your letter ( 17th ). I just received your hand writing letter with the photos yesterday. It’s too late ! I think that the post office in Cambodia works so slowly. It spent more than 3 weeks to reach my hands. How nice of you to have written to me almost every day. But it’s not true that I didn’t write to you ‘for a long time’. You may wonder what I’m doing in these days.
Well, it’s quite an inactive life as before. How can I tell you what I’m feeling when sometimes, I don’t even understand myself? I wish things were perfectly wonderful between us, but we’re going to have to work at it to make them that way. I do believe we have so much to build on… our memories and our love most of all. I may not always understand why we have problems, or exactly how to make our relationship stronger, but I care enough to want us to try to find out. krishna my love! These days I am spending time to read my diary when we were studying in high school. I feel that I did big mistakes on you. Do you remember the Chrismas day (2006) you gave me a bird ? Absolutely, I do believe that you still remember that sorrow day. That time you gave me a small box ( I didn’t expect to recieve from you ). I’m still amazed at what you gave me ! In the red small box there are 2 parts. The first part of the box it’s just a lovely paper-bird. While the second one is the two small paper-hearts. It’s so suprising ! I absolutely know that it’s not just a simple bird and hearts. But it means more than this !
krishna ! Do you know what I was thinking the time when I opened your red box ? I felt angry with you ! I hated you…. I hate someone loves me ! I asked myself why it should be me ? Why ????? That’s why that night after recieving your bird I could not sleep well. I wanted to threw it in front of you to express how much I hate and afraid of the word ” Love “. So I took another bird that I made by myself to you and kept your small bird inside it and said ” It [ my bird ] is pregnant “.( I just found the other two paper-hearts in the second part of your box that’s why I didn’t give you back with your bird that time ) Sonang hery bong eing ! Kom ey amaz mok jerng…:b). Do you still keep that big bird ? Sorry, in fact the baby inside is your bird. I put it in the big bird. I didn’t know that it’s better to keep it or not, I know it means more than just a bird. I afraid that I could not take care it well or make it hurts , so just let you keep it by yourself. And the phrase ” It is pregnant ” -this phrase I wanted to tell you that inside it is a baby, your baby!! Angry ???

On the other hand, krishna I have one question to ask you :

” It is called the Real Love ? When you know that She loves you because She doesn’t want to make you embarrass in turn of rejection “.

Ok, darling I change the topic. Let’s me tell you what is going on in our country:

First of all, it’s so suprising news Gen. Hok Lundy, head of national police, was killed on Sunday November 09,2008 in a helicopter crash while flying to Svay Rieng province in bad weather.

The last but not least news, the dispute between Cambodia and Thailand over preah vihear temple and territory around. I think that it’s the boring topic. Anyway, let’s me express my idea: Everytime of negotiation Thailand insists on the use of maps drawn by itself, without Cambodia’s agreement, is against the spirit of good neighbourly respect and contrary to international laws. Those maps have no legal basis under international laws. So, if Thailand is insisting on using the maps unilaterally drawn by Thailand itself, will there ever be an agreement and peace at all? I have a short story to tell and to ask you. Suppose that your neighbour drew the new plan of his house ( Using the plan drawn by himself without your agreement and authority). His real land only 25*40 but when he drew the new one 30*55. So it is called justice ? Can you accept it ? I do believe that you do not agree ! My conclusion, if that is the case, is there any room for Cambodia to manoeuvre in the negotiations?

Ok, darling in this letter I wrote a lot. I wish that you find it not the boring letter. My last word to you to finish this letter: I want to tell you that the love I have for you is undying. It is a love that is strong and enduring and will stand the test of time. I truly feel blessed that you have become a part of my life. I want to lie next to you and fall asleep in your arms. I want to wake to your beautiful smile. I want to share in your joys and sorrows. I want to be your everything, because you are everything to me.

With love,

sikar tevie

P.S. Don’t forget darling answer my question !

Letter From Moscow: Together….

Moscow, Russian Federation
Saturday,october 18,2008

To loveliest sikar tevie,

Hi darling ! Is everything ok ? For me, I’m fine. Everything is processing by its own ways. Difficulties and loneliness are simple for the guy who is far away from his family and his love. Of course, dearest darling, I’m sure you want to ask me: why I don’t find friends ? In the matter of fact, I have alot of friends right now but I feel that I’m still living lonely. Don’t know why ? It might be of You, sikar tevie! I miss miss miss you so much !!! I want to talk with you, I want to walk with you, I want to sit beside you, I want to hug you to express how much I miss you amd how much I love you. Unfortunately, These few days my sim card is not working. That’s why I couldn’t write sms or call to you to express my love to you. I’m sure i have to change the new one.
Do you know, darling ? When I think of our love it reminds me of all the things you are to me. You and only you have given me so much hope and have made me realize how much I want you! You show the true meaning of how a man should treat a woman. Dearest sikar tevie, please accept my heart as your own and listen to both of ours beating as one. You are my reason to stand up, to take risk and to live. Without you I’m nothing. The years will be a test, but nothing will keep me from loving you, or from being by your side. I just wanted to let you know how much I love all that you are and will be. You’re truly my love, my soul mate, and my best friend. For the first time in my life I have someone to believe in besides my mummy and God. You’ve seen me at my worst and still take me as I am. I thank God for you every day because I know you’re heaven sent, you are my angel. I love you from now till death do us part. Today, it’s enough to show my deep love to you. Ok ! Darling, now I change the topic.

This evening I talked with friends, khmer students in Moscow, about our national problems. One of my friend asked me to translate his poem into English: Thailand, the place of smiling INVADERs. But I denied to translate and post it in our blog. Because it’s useless to do such thing against each other.

In the matter of fact, these few days the tension between Cambodia and Thailand is reaching the cross-road, what i should call “The Useless War “. Now let’s we start our talk about the dispute between Cambodia and Thailand:

On october 15, 2008, Samdach Techo Hun Sen expressed his powerful speech: ” You can step on my foot a little and pull back…. But you can not step on my head.” Of course, he is suitable to call the strongman of Cambodia as Harish Mehta wrote in the book you gave me last year. ( Forget ? You gave this book to me in the day i firstly could see your lovely smile, remember ? Yup men kon nis…).

Now I have an answer to your question and one comment to express my opinion with you, darling.

Your question:

Why our Government does not seek the third parties while the tension along the border is reaching the high temper ?

For my point of view, dearest darling, it can be a political tactics of our government- Samdach Techo Hun Sen. I don’t disagree with you the idea you wrote in the last letter that we can not find good resolution without the third parties. However, my darling, it’s might be solved through the biliteral talk, i think. But the two countries must stick to a truly honest neighborhood principle and the resolutions must be solved basing on the international recognized legal documents and treaties- 1904 and 1907 Siam-French Treaty and the verdict of ICJ 1962. Anyway, it’s the hard work to do that for thailand, I think. On the other hand, if we observe to the international stance to this choice is not welcomed by the UN and ASEAN body as long as the situation is not seriously concerned. So this might make Samdach Hun Sen to have patience for the right time to come.

I have one comment to our government:

We have to understand that,
We can not get any advantages for our country from joining bilateral negotiation ( Besides showing to the international arena that We love peace. We always want to resolve the conflict by peaceful meaning ). Anyway, the longer this tension is going on Cambodia might lose her territorial integrity to Thailand. So the better way is only the third party´s intervention may help and protect the nation from loss, so the third party [ UN, ICJ, and ASEAN ] is needed and the most importance is that all millitary must be ready to protect our territory against any invasions from Thailand.

Darling, I hope you can understand what I mean in my writing today. As cambodians we have to care of our nation. I want to take this opportunity to dedicate to our brave soilders who devote their red blood and tears of their families for homeland!

I finish my writing. But before saying good night I want to tell you that:
” I promise, you’ll always be in my heart. I love you.”

Only you in my heart,

heng krishna

P.S.

Write to me soon. I’m waiting your letter.

Letter From Phnom Penh:Phnom Penh–Moscow Is Not So Far !

Dear heng krishna,

Hi dear ! How are you ? Darest krishna, at the moment I logged in to this blog and first of all, I saw your letter. I could not read your letter without feeling a pain, not because it gave me a shock, but because on the contrary you are too tender and too generous. While reading that, I couldn’t stop weeping and trembling for some minutes. See ? I’m so weak ! I’m still a child ! But a child only in front of you. / I’m getting a little bit irritated by not having enough time to write to you for quite a while. I’m sorry about this. I hope you’re well and enjoying your life where you are now and I’m sure that you’ve adapted yourself to your college life again. Anyway, my consciousness reminds me that you’re not so fine. You miss family, (and Me ??? ) right ? How can I know, darling ? Actually, I spent my time to read the posts of Chao sorn and Leng. They both are missing their families, Cambodia and friends. In the matter of fact, I understand your feeling krishna. But You have to be strong ! Only you can complete your goals. As for me, I’m now quite all right because of my mental and physical efforts. By mental effort, I mean to try not to complain and devote my time instead to reading; by physical effort, I mean to practice sport in my garden, and I found out that physical practice gives me some refreshing pleasantness. Thus I’m preventing myself from falling into depression. Nevertheless I feel lonely and find my present life quite unsatisfactory. Now I began to concentrate on the books by Virginia Woolf, these days. Her actual life was much more interesting than her novels. In her life she suffered nervous breakdowns many times and attempted suicide a couple of times. If it had not been for her husband, she would have put an end to life much earlier. Her husband advised that she should not bear her own children. And the reference book says that they (Virginia and her husband) were equal partners in their married life.

I am sure that you’re eager to know what is going on in our country, right ?

These fews days more Thai troops were deployed to the border area. Today Deputy prime minister of Thailand will arrive in Phnom Penh to have a talk over the tension between two countries. As I know, key issues in the meeting is included a plan to reduce troops, and talks on the Joint Boundary Commission to try to demarcate the border.

Dear krishna, for my point of view, I don’t think we can find good resolution in the dispute without the third side. I mean, why don’t we try to seek the international court ? What is behind the decision of our government ? What our goverment needs from Thailand ? I, sometimes agree with our people who said that ” Why we need to negotiate with thieves? They steal us. Why we are so polite with them? — Take them to the court, please!”. I really want to know the reason why Samdach Techo Hun Sen did not want to file a complaint to the international court instead of trying to have the useless biliteral talk? Anyway, I always believe that our government spare no effort to serve our national interest. It’s top secret ! National problem can not be told to people except vital reason or circumstance.

Ok, dearest darling krishna ! I finish my letter here. I wish to see your letter as soon as possible.
Believe me, darling ! The distance and the time that stand between us is not the reason that make me change my love from you !

Take care of yourself,

With my best love,

sikar tevie