Letter From Moscow: Ber Kmen tevie Ter Oy Bong Snaeh Neak Na

Letter From Phnom Penh: In Mathematics, One and One Are Two But In Love, One and One Are One

Phnom Penh, Kingdom Of Wonder (Cambodia)

Sunday, November 01, 2009

Dear dearest krishna,

My dearest darling ! What a wonderful beginning to a new month of November ! 30 days of separation between us has gone… There are more than ??? you are going to stay by my side in our beloved country– Cambodia. I’m waiting those days … ! How have you been, darling ? How is your life in Moscow ? How is your study ? There are a lot of questions I want to ask you, darling ! I miss you so much !
I absolutely understand why you can not write letters to share your deep love to me and express your idea about politics. How is your exam, darling ? Is the winter coming again ? Don’t forget dear krishna wear warm clothes everytime when you go outside, ok ? I’m so worried about you.

Darling, in this letter I’m going to share some idea with you about politics in our country. Even you don’t have enough time to read today, but I wish somedays when you will be online you will read the letter.

Below is the opinion about recent events happened in our beloved country–Cambodia, darling:

After arriving at Hua Hin Airport to attend the 15th Asean Summit, Prime Minister Samdach Techo Hun Sen told reporters that he would :
- Welcome former prime minister Thaksin Shinawatra to Cambodia,
- Deny extradition and
- Appoint him as his economic adviser.

What is behind the decisions of Samdach Prime Minsiter Hun Sen ?

Darling krishna, I support these decisions ! Some extremists are not happy with the stance of Prime Minister Hun Sen to made such decisions. But why they don’t try to find out the reasons behind the decisions of our prime minister ? If there was not the invasion of thai soldiers into the territory near Prasat Preah Vihear on July 15, 2008, would PM Hun Sen make these decisions ? PM Hun Sen could be considered as a poor-leadership prime minister in the eyes of thai extremists. But for us, khmer people and thai people, who love peace and harmony in both countries, consider Samdach Hun Sen as a great leader ! A respectful political leader in Asia, who always support and leads the country–our beloved Cambodia base on the Five Principles (Panch Shila):
- mutual respect for other nations’ territorial integrity and sovereignty;
- nonaggression;
- noninterference in internal affairs;
- equality and mutual benefit; and
- peaceful coexistence.

Well, darling as the matter of fact prime minister Hun Sen does not interfer Thai problems. He is right ! PM Hun Sen is standing on the right place at the right time. What our prime minister and our khmer people want is good relation as neighbouring country with Thailand and to finish the long tension along the border between the two countries. Prime minister Hun Sen just wanted to try to find resolutions to avoid blooding war between Cambodia and Thailand. Darling, the 3rd stance of Samdach Hun Sen, for my point of view, PM Hun Sen could consider between Thaksin, former prime minister and Abhisit Vejjajiva, new prime minister who got the power from a coup which has not done anything good for poor Thai at the border ( these are diferent from Thaksin’s time that people in both sides are good for exchanging their goods and made their living better), whom PM Hun Sen can work effectively with. If I were PM Hun Sen, I’d choose ( like PM Hun Sen) the one who has experience in politics better than….;b !

Ok, darling krishna! It’s their problems. Only Thais can solve their problems ! Thais are civilized people. They would understand the way they should choose to walk by themselves better than blaming other countries or attracting others to involve with its political chaos.

My dearest darling ! They are wrong to criticize Samdach Techo Hun Sen about what he answered to reporters at the 15th Asean Summit. They should blame their prime minister and a group of peple beside him for what they are incapable to restore national stability in their country. Thailand is the one that has sowed the seeds of conflict since they sent troop to invade Cambodia on July 15, 2008 and sparked the clashing to the deadly soldiers on both sides. Again, thai government has no good willing to solve the problems with Cambodia.

Why Samdach Techo Hun Sen need to play nationalism with Thailand ?

It is funny to ask such question, darling ! Prime Minister Hun Sen does not need to play nationalism in Cambodia to gain popularity. Cambodian Peoples’ Party won by a majority in every elections. Samdach Hun Sen won’t need more support by playing with Thailand. What he really wants is a mechanism to find resolutions to finish the tension along the border between Cambodia and Thailand cause by political chaos in Thailand.

Is the idea of ” Closing Border ” ( if happens ) makes by Thailand is a better choice to revenge prime minister Hun Sen for his resolution to finish the tension ?

Dearest darling krishna, as you already knew that since the opening officially Cambodian-Thai border in 1989, the policy ” Turn Battlefield into Market Place ” of Chatichai, former prime minister of Thailand, Thailand has gotten more advantages than our Cambodia, imbalance on cross border trade. If there is any idea of closing border propose by a clique of extremists, who will lose benefit? If i don’t confuse, Thailand. Let’s consider together, darling ! Who own the big hotels in Siem Reap, Angkor Wat and Casino along the border ? Thai businessmen again! Korean, Vietnamese and Chinese products are entering Cambodia. Where do Thai products go? Khmer has a proverb ” Think before Saying! “. So, some thai extremists please think again and again to find out what is your interests behind your proposal ! Don’t you believe that you would lost interests in Cambodia with the the idea of closing border?

Does the comparision of Thaksin to Suu Kyi is an insult to the millions of Burmese people who are suffering at the hands of the ruling junta ?

krishna, my beloved ! This is the quote from the speech of prime minister Samdach Techo Hun Sen at Hua Hin Airport to attend the 15th Asean: “Many people talk about Aung San Suu Kyi in Myanmar [Burma], why not talk about Thaksin?”

We all know, that Madame Aung San Suu Kyi is a great fighter for democracy. Not only people all over the world but also khmer people and prime minister Hun Sen respect Suu Kyi’s devotion for her country. PM Hun Sen has no intention to insult to the millions of Burmese people who are suffering at the hands of the ruling Junta. On the other hand, what prime minister Hun Sen wanted to say ( if I don’t confuse ) is that Madame Suu Kyi and Thaksin are famous political leaders, who got power by legal election but were ousted from power by millitary coups. So, in this case,Thaksin and Suu Kyi are the same ! Why they (extremists) don’t mention about it ! Some pessimists have tried to play nationalism by changing the right meaning of what PM Hun Sen said to serve its interests and ambition. It’s the kind of puring oil on fire.

One more accusation from The Nation, the cheapest thai newspaper in the world wrote:
You can take the man out of the jungle but you cannot take the jungle out of the man

It is the cheapest expression of the thai unpopular newspaper to criticize khmer leaders intents to burn nationalism in hearts of khmer and thai peoples. As an intellect ( the author of the article ) he should find out the Pros and Cons before writing such rude expression in his cheapest newspaper. And one thing I want to advise the author of the article in The Nation, the cheapest newspaper ( Darling, I can not help myself avoiding to use the word ” ADVISE ” even it is not polite ( According to our culture, it is not good to a younger to advise an older. At least we ought to pay our respect to olders). But for this old man ( The author of the article ), he is not suitable to get such kind of respect from me, a 19-year-old girl : Please do not try to teach fishes how to swim. They know more than you do !
I wished he’d be cleverer than this as a man lives in the civilized country–Thailand !

Dearest darling, I’m gonna finish my letter here. But before finishing I’d like to tell some extremists that : Cambodian people are watching the situation in Thailand and the relation between two countries. For my point of view, with no doubt that if there will be election in Thailand Thaksin will win becuse majority of Thai people are suporting him.

Ok, I finish my topic about politics here.

Darling krishna, I almost forget to reply to your sms last night. Do not be scared my love! Sometimes life hits you with unexpected things that take you totally by surprise. The life is always like a game. Anything could happen !
Ok, darling I stop my writing here by repeating a phrase of Mark Twain, one of my favourite authors:
* To get the full value of joy You must have someone to divide it with.

With love,

sikar tevie

Letter From Phnom Penh: Everyone Calls Our Love Madness, But I Call It A Wonderful Love

Dear darlling,

This is a letter for you.

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I’m waiting for your reply.

With love,

sikar tevie

Letter From Moscow: Amazing Love

Dear dearest tevie,

I just finished writing my letter. Let’s enjoy reading the letter below.

letter from moscow 003(Please click here, darling)

I forgot to answer your second question about the ” Political concept of Machiavelli”. I’m going to send to you in my next letter.

Don’t forget write to me soon. I’m waiting for your letter!
Take care, darling!

With my deepest love to you,

heng krishna

Letter From Phnom Penh: Endless Love

My beloved krishna,

Letter from Phnom Penh 001
( darling, just click here. Tell me if it doesn’t work.)

Thank you so much for letter(s) in form of PDF. I’m going to keep them as our love letters and our great memoires. I’m sure that It will be a great collection for our children, right?

Thanks again darling for sending me an interesting letter and Software of PDFcreator.

Let’s enjoy reading my letter ( Mine is longer than yours!)

The endless love,

sikar tevie

Letter From Moscow: Darling I Miss You !

Dear dearest darling tevie,

Letter From Moscow 001 (Darling,pls click here….It’s for you)

I hope that you will suprise with the change of my letter. Let’s enjoy reading.

I’m waiting for your reply.

with my deeply love to you,

heng krishna

Letter From Phnom Penh: It’s Not Bad Luck, But Just Good Chance !

Dear dearest krishna,

I received your letter this morning. It’s a pity that the result of your exam was not successful. Maybe your preparation period was not long enough because of your sickness. Although you say to yourself, it doesn’t matter, I imagine that the fact that you didn’t succeed, somehow affects or shadows your present mental condition, at least unconsciously. For, our mood is so easily influenced by such a small thing in our daily life. But anyway I wish you would succeed in it next time. I hope you are already out of depression when you read this letter, but if you are not, I feel sorry for you. During the time you were in Cambodia, I never saw you depressed as you are now in your last letter and you always overwhelmed me by speaking of depression so vigorously. But I know that you have the ability to ‘play with’ the depression when it comes, instead of being defeated by it completely. However, I was so surprised when you wrote such these phrases: you are getting tired of life, tired of living there, tired of sickness, tired of weakness…etc. I hope that your strength to struggle is much stronger than your “degree of ‘getting tired of everything’ “. I wonder what’s the real problem that makes you said that you feel ’something like extremely tired’ with living in Moscow. I imagine that when you’ve got completely used to one thing, you begin to feel dissatisfied with the status quo and to seek for something new. But I think it would be better not to quit all the comfortable things in your present life. It’s only one year since you have been settled down there in Russia. Dearest darling ! Actually, I don’t understand what’s happening with you now. Are you sick ? or are you missing family ? / From your last letter I cannot make a clear conclusion besides the idea that you are sick and going to have a medical treatment in hospital for along period of time. Is it right ? Tell me pls, darling ! I really want to know what you mean in your last letter. Darling ! If my conclusion is right please take care yourself. Don’t think too much it will be better. It’s not bad luck, but you have to think that it’s good chance for you to find out the meaning of life, the meaning of struggle and the meaning of helping you by yourself. Darling krishna, I have a fairy tale of the 3 princes to tell you. Pls read it and consider the moral of the tale: Long time ago, there were three princes lived in a kingdom– Indrabatr Borei. These 3 princes traveled around, coming upon experience after experience of misfortune and seeming disaster in the lives of others. But as a result of their visits and the happy discoveries they made, the disasters or tragedies were turned into greater successes and happinesses than before. On one occasion, the three princes came to a farmhouse where an unfortunate accident had taken place. The farmer’s only son had been thrown from the farmer’s only horse and had broken his leg. The horse had then run off and could not be found. The farmer was quite distressed, but the three princes told him not to worry, “It’s too soon to judge; something good will happen.” This country happened to be involved in a war at that time with a neighboring country. The next morning, a squad of soldiers arrived at the house to forcefully conscript all young, able-bodied men into the army. As it happened, the farmer’s only son had a broken leg so he was spared from conscription. Later that day, representatives of the government came by to seize all horses that could be used by the army. But since their only horse had run off, again the farmer was spared. Later, the army lost a great battle and most of the men and horses were killed. What appeared to be an unfortunate event, the breaking of the leg and the escape of the horse, turned out to be the salvation of the farmer. Some time later, after the war, the horse came home of its own accord, leading several other wild horses. The son’s leg soon mended. And the farmer was happy. An apparent disaster turned out to be a series of blessings in disguise.

Dearest darling, I think that this sort of thing will happen to you as well this time if you allow it and you look for it. Sometimes, your sickness this time would bring you some good lucks that no one knows. Well, now it’s midnight, darling. I have to go to bed now. So I finish my letter here. I hope that even you’re in hospital, you can receive and read it with the satisfaction.

With my deeply love,

sikar tevie

P.S. Be strong darling ! It’s not your misfortune, but it’s just the test !

Letter From Phnom Penh: Two heads One Heart

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Saturday November 15, 2008

Dear krishna,

By the time this letter reaches you, I hope that your first exam on November has been over; though if you’re still in its process, I wish you a good luck.
Thank you very much for your letter ( 17th ). I just received your hand writing letter with the photos yesterday. It’s too late ! I think that the post office in Cambodia works so slowly. It spent more than 3 weeks to reach my hands. How nice of you to have written to me almost every day. But it’s not true that I didn’t write to you ‘for a long time’. You may wonder what I’m doing in these days.
Well, it’s quite an inactive life as before. How can I tell you what I’m feeling when sometimes, I don’t even understand myself? I wish things were perfectly wonderful between us, but we’re going to have to work at it to make them that way. I do believe we have so much to build on… our memories and our love most of all. I may not always understand why we have problems, or exactly how to make our relationship stronger, but I care enough to want us to try to find out. krishna my love! These days I am spending time to read my diary when we were studying in high school. I feel that I did big mistakes on you. Do you remember the Chrismas day (2006) you gave me a bird ? Absolutely, I do believe that you still remember that sorrow day. That time you gave me a small box ( I didn’t expect to recieve from you ). I’m still amazed at what you gave me ! In the red small box there are 2 parts. The first part of the box it’s just a lovely paper-bird. While the second one is the two small paper-hearts. It’s so suprising ! I absolutely know that it’s not just a simple bird and hearts. But it means more than this !
krishna ! Do you know what I was thinking the time when I opened your red box ? I felt angry with you ! I hated you…. I hate someone loves me ! I asked myself why it should be me ? Why ????? That’s why that night after recieving your bird I could not sleep well. I wanted to threw it in front of you to express how much I hate and afraid of the word ” Love “. So I took another bird that I made by myself to you and kept your small bird inside it and said ” It [ my bird ] is pregnant “.( I just found the other two paper-hearts in the second part of your box that’s why I didn’t give you back with your bird that time ) Sonang hery bong eing ! Kom ey amaz mok jerng…:b). Do you still keep that big bird ? Sorry, in fact the baby inside is your bird. I put it in the big bird. I didn’t know that it’s better to keep it or not, I know it means more than just a bird. I afraid that I could not take care it well or make it hurts , so just let you keep it by yourself. And the phrase ” It is pregnant ” -this phrase I wanted to tell you that inside it is a baby, your baby!! Angry ???

On the other hand, krishna I have one question to ask you :

” It is called the Real Love ? When you know that She loves you because She doesn’t want to make you embarrass in turn of rejection “.

Ok, darling I change the topic. Let’s me tell you what is going on in our country:

First of all, it’s so suprising news Gen. Hok Lundy, head of national police, was killed on Sunday November 09,2008 in a helicopter crash while flying to Svay Rieng province in bad weather.

The last but not least news, the dispute between Cambodia and Thailand over preah vihear temple and territory around. I think that it’s the boring topic. Anyway, let’s me express my idea: Everytime of negotiation Thailand insists on the use of maps drawn by itself, without Cambodia’s agreement, is against the spirit of good neighbourly respect and contrary to international laws. Those maps have no legal basis under international laws. So, if Thailand is insisting on using the maps unilaterally drawn by Thailand itself, will there ever be an agreement and peace at all? I have a short story to tell and to ask you. Suppose that your neighbour drew the new plan of his house ( Using the plan drawn by himself without your agreement and authority). His real land only 25*40 but when he drew the new one 30*55. So it is called justice ? Can you accept it ? I do believe that you do not agree ! My conclusion, if that is the case, is there any room for Cambodia to manoeuvre in the negotiations?

Ok, darling in this letter I wrote a lot. I wish that you find it not the boring letter. My last word to you to finish this letter: I want to tell you that the love I have for you is undying. It is a love that is strong and enduring and will stand the test of time. I truly feel blessed that you have become a part of my life. I want to lie next to you and fall asleep in your arms. I want to wake to your beautiful smile. I want to share in your joys and sorrows. I want to be your everything, because you are everything to me.

With love,

sikar tevie

P.S. Don’t forget darling answer my question !

Letter From Moscow: Together….

Moscow, Russian Federation
Saturday,october 18,2008

To loveliest sikar tevie,

Hi darling ! Is everything ok ? For me, I’m fine. Everything is processing by its own ways. Difficulties and loneliness are simple for the guy who is far away from his family and his love. Of course, dearest darling, I’m sure you want to ask me: why I don’t find friends ? In the matter of fact, I have alot of friends right now but I feel that I’m still living lonely. Don’t know why ? It might be of You, sikar tevie! I miss miss miss you so much !!! I want to talk with you, I want to walk with you, I want to sit beside you, I want to hug you to express how much I miss you amd how much I love you. Unfortunately, These few days my sim card is not working. That’s why I couldn’t write sms or call to you to express my love to you. I’m sure i have to change the new one.
Do you know, darling ? When I think of our love it reminds me of all the things you are to me. You and only you have given me so much hope and have made me realize how much I want you! You show the true meaning of how a man should treat a woman. Dearest sikar tevie, please accept my heart as your own and listen to both of ours beating as one. You are my reason to stand up, to take risk and to live. Without you I’m nothing. The years will be a test, but nothing will keep me from loving you, or from being by your side. I just wanted to let you know how much I love all that you are and will be. You’re truly my love, my soul mate, and my best friend. For the first time in my life I have someone to believe in besides my mummy and God. You’ve seen me at my worst and still take me as I am. I thank God for you every day because I know you’re heaven sent, you are my angel. I love you from now till death do us part. Today, it’s enough to show my deep love to you. Ok ! Darling, now I change the topic.

This evening I talked with friends, khmer students in Moscow, about our national problems. One of my friend asked me to translate his poem into English: Thailand, the place of smiling INVADERs. But I denied to translate and post it in our blog. Because it’s useless to do such thing against each other.

In the matter of fact, these few days the tension between Cambodia and Thailand is reaching the cross-road, what i should call “The Useless War “. Now let’s we start our talk about the dispute between Cambodia and Thailand:

On october 15, 2008, Samdach Techo Hun Sen expressed his powerful speech: ” You can step on my foot a little and pull back…. But you can not step on my head.” Of course, he is suitable to call the strongman of Cambodia as Harish Mehta wrote in the book you gave me last year. ( Forget ? You gave this book to me in the day i firstly could see your lovely smile, remember ? Yup men kon nis…).

Now I have an answer to your question and one comment to express my opinion with you, darling.

Your question:

Why our Government does not seek the third parties while the tension along the border is reaching the high temper ?

For my point of view, dearest darling, it can be a political tactics of our government- Samdach Techo Hun Sen. I don’t disagree with you the idea you wrote in the last letter that we can not find good resolution without the third parties. However, my darling, it’s might be solved through the biliteral talk, i think. But the two countries must stick to a truly honest neighborhood principle and the resolutions must be solved basing on the international recognized legal documents and treaties- 1904 and 1907 Siam-French Treaty and the verdict of ICJ 1962. Anyway, it’s the hard work to do that for thailand, I think. On the other hand, if we observe to the international stance to this choice is not welcomed by the UN and ASEAN body as long as the situation is not seriously concerned. So this might make Samdach Hun Sen to have patience for the right time to come.

I have one comment to our government:

We have to understand that,
We can not get any advantages for our country from joining bilateral negotiation ( Besides showing to the international arena that We love peace. We always want to resolve the conflict by peaceful meaning ). Anyway, the longer this tension is going on Cambodia might lose her territorial integrity to Thailand. So the better way is only the third party´s intervention may help and protect the nation from loss, so the third party [ UN, ICJ, and ASEAN ] is needed and the most importance is that all millitary must be ready to protect our territory against any invasions from Thailand.

Darling, I hope you can understand what I mean in my writing today. As cambodians we have to care of our nation. I want to take this opportunity to dedicate to our brave soilders who devote their red blood and tears of their families for homeland!

I finish my writing. But before saying good night I want to tell you that:
” I promise, you’ll always be in my heart. I love you.”

Only you in my heart,

heng krishna

P.S.

Write to me soon. I’m waiting your letter.

Letter From Phnom Penh:Phnom Penh–Moscow Is Not So Far !

Dear heng krishna,

Hi dear ! How are you ? Darest krishna, at the moment I logged in to this blog and first of all, I saw your letter. I could not read your letter without feeling a pain, not because it gave me a shock, but because on the contrary you are too tender and too generous. While reading that, I couldn’t stop weeping and trembling for some minutes. See ? I’m so weak ! I’m still a child ! But a child only in front of you. / I’m getting a little bit irritated by not having enough time to write to you for quite a while. I’m sorry about this. I hope you’re well and enjoying your life where you are now and I’m sure that you’ve adapted yourself to your college life again. Anyway, my consciousness reminds me that you’re not so fine. You miss family, (and Me ??? ) right ? How can I know, darling ? Actually, I spent my time to read the posts of Chao sorn and Leng. They both are missing their families, Cambodia and friends. In the matter of fact, I understand your feeling krishna. But You have to be strong ! Only you can complete your goals. As for me, I’m now quite all right because of my mental and physical efforts. By mental effort, I mean to try not to complain and devote my time instead to reading; by physical effort, I mean to practice sport in my garden, and I found out that physical practice gives me some refreshing pleasantness. Thus I’m preventing myself from falling into depression. Nevertheless I feel lonely and find my present life quite unsatisfactory. Now I began to concentrate on the books by Virginia Woolf, these days. Her actual life was much more interesting than her novels. In her life she suffered nervous breakdowns many times and attempted suicide a couple of times. If it had not been for her husband, she would have put an end to life much earlier. Her husband advised that she should not bear her own children. And the reference book says that they (Virginia and her husband) were equal partners in their married life.

I am sure that you’re eager to know what is going on in our country, right ?

These fews days more Thai troops were deployed to the border area. Today Deputy prime minister of Thailand will arrive in Phnom Penh to have a talk over the tension between two countries. As I know, key issues in the meeting is included a plan to reduce troops, and talks on the Joint Boundary Commission to try to demarcate the border.

Dear krishna, for my point of view, I don’t think we can find good resolution in the dispute without the third side. I mean, why don’t we try to seek the international court ? What is behind the decision of our government ? What our goverment needs from Thailand ? I, sometimes agree with our people who said that ” Why we need to negotiate with thieves? They steal us. Why we are so polite with them? — Take them to the court, please!”. I really want to know the reason why Samdach Techo Hun Sen did not want to file a complaint to the international court instead of trying to have the useless biliteral talk? Anyway, I always believe that our government spare no effort to serve our national interest. It’s top secret ! National problem can not be told to people except vital reason or circumstance.

Ok, dearest darling krishna ! I finish my letter here. I wish to see your letter as soon as possible.
Believe me, darling ! The distance and the time that stand between us is not the reason that make me change my love from you !

Take care of yourself,

With my best love,

sikar tevie