Letter From Phnom Penh:Phnom Penh–Moscow Is Not So Far !

Dear heng krishna,

Hi dear ! How are you ? Darest krishna, at the moment I logged in to this blog and first of all, I saw your letter. I could not read your letter without feeling a pain, not because it gave me a shock, but because on the contrary you are too tender and too generous. While reading that, I couldn’t stop weeping and trembling for some minutes. See ? I’m so weak ! I’m still a child ! But a child only in front of you. / I’m getting a little bit irritated by not having enough time to write to you for quite a while. I’m sorry about this. I hope you’re well and enjoying your life where you are now and I’m sure that you’ve adapted yourself to your college life again. Anyway, my consciousness reminds me that you’re not so fine. You miss family, (and Me ??? ) right ? How can I know, darling ? Actually, I spent my time to read the posts of Chao sorn and Leng. They both are missing their families, Cambodia and friends. In the matter of fact, I understand your feeling krishna. But You have to be strong ! Only you can complete your goals. As for me, I’m now quite all right because of my mental and physical efforts. By mental effort, I mean to try not to complain and devote my time instead to reading; by physical effort, I mean to practice sport in my garden, and I found out that physical practice gives me some refreshing pleasantness. Thus I’m preventing myself from falling into depression. Nevertheless I feel lonely and find my present life quite unsatisfactory. Now I began to concentrate on the books by Virginia Woolf, these days. Her actual life was much more interesting than her novels. In her life she suffered nervous breakdowns many times and attempted suicide a couple of times. If it had not been for her husband, she would have put an end to life much earlier. Her husband advised that she should not bear her own children. And the reference book says that they (Virginia and her husband) were equal partners in their married life.

I am sure that you’re eager to know what is going on in our country, right ?

These fews days more Thai troops were deployed to the border area. Today Deputy prime minister of Thailand will arrive in Phnom Penh to have a talk over the tension between two countries. As I know, key issues in the meeting is included a plan to reduce troops, and talks on the Joint Boundary Commission to try to demarcate the border.

Dear krishna, for my point of view, I don’t think we can find good resolution in the dispute without the third side. I mean, why don’t we try to seek the international court ? What is behind the decision of our government ? What our goverment needs from Thailand ? I, sometimes agree with our people who said that ” Why we need to negotiate with thieves? They steal us. Why we are so polite with them? — Take them to the court, please!”. I really want to know the reason why Samdach Techo Hun Sen did not want to file a complaint to the international court instead of trying to have the useless biliteral talk? Anyway, I always believe that our government spare no effort to serve our national interest. It’s top secret ! National problem can not be told to people except vital reason or circumstance.

Ok, dearest darling krishna ! I finish my letter here. I wish to see your letter as soon as possible.
Believe me, darling ! The distance and the time that stand between us is not the reason that make me change my love from you !

Take care of yourself,

With my best love,

sikar tevie