Letter From Moscow: Together….

Moscow, Russian Federation
Saturday,october 18,2008

To loveliest sikar tevie,

Hi darling ! Is everything ok ? For me, I’m fine. Everything is processing by its own ways. Difficulties and loneliness are simple for the guy who is far away from his family and his love. Of course, dearest darling, I’m sure you want to ask me: why I don’t find friends ? In the matter of fact, I have alot of friends right now but I feel that I’m still living lonely. Don’t know why ? It might be of You, sikar tevie! I miss miss miss you so much !!! I want to talk with you, I want to walk with you, I want to sit beside you, I want to hug you to express how much I miss you amd how much I love you. Unfortunately, These few days my sim card is not working. That’s why I couldn’t write sms or call to you to express my love to you. I’m sure i have to change the new one.
Do you know, darling ? When I think of our love it reminds me of all the things you are to me. You and only you have given me so much hope and have made me realize how much I want you! You show the true meaning of how a man should treat a woman. Dearest sikar tevie, please accept my heart as your own and listen to both of ours beating as one. You are my reason to stand up, to take risk and to live. Without you I’m nothing. The years will be a test, but nothing will keep me from loving you, or from being by your side. I just wanted to let you know how much I love all that you are and will be. You’re truly my love, my soul mate, and my best friend. For the first time in my life I have someone to believe in besides my mummy and God. You’ve seen me at my worst and still take me as I am. I thank God for you every day because I know you’re heaven sent, you are my angel. I love you from now till death do us part. Today, it’s enough to show my deep love to you. Ok ! Darling, now I change the topic.

This evening I talked with friends, khmer students in Moscow, about our national problems. One of my friend asked me to translate his poem into English: Thailand, the place of smiling INVADERs. But I denied to translate and post it in our blog. Because it’s useless to do such thing against each other.

In the matter of fact, these few days the tension between Cambodia and Thailand is reaching the cross-road, what i should call “The Useless War “. Now let’s we start our talk about the dispute between Cambodia and Thailand:

On october 15, 2008, Samdach Techo Hun Sen expressed his powerful speech: ” You can step on my foot a little and pull back…. But you can not step on my head.” Of course, he is suitable to call the strongman of Cambodia as Harish Mehta wrote in the book you gave me last year. ( Forget ? You gave this book to me in the day i firstly could see your lovely smile, remember ? Yup men kon nis…).

Now I have an answer to your question and one comment to express my opinion with you, darling.

Your question:

Why our Government does not seek the third parties while the tension along the border is reaching the high temper ?

For my point of view, dearest darling, it can be a political tactics of our government- Samdach Techo Hun Sen. I don’t disagree with you the idea you wrote in the last letter that we can not find good resolution without the third parties. However, my darling, it’s might be solved through the biliteral talk, i think. But the two countries must stick to a truly honest neighborhood principle and the resolutions must be solved basing on the international recognized legal documents and treaties- 1904 and 1907 Siam-French Treaty and the verdict of ICJ 1962. Anyway, it’s the hard work to do that for thailand, I think. On the other hand, if we observe to the international stance to this choice is not welcomed by the UN and ASEAN body as long as the situation is not seriously concerned. So this might make Samdach Hun Sen to have patience for the right time to come.

I have one comment to our government:

We have to understand that,
We can not get any advantages for our country from joining bilateral negotiation ( Besides showing to the international arena that We love peace. We always want to resolve the conflict by peaceful meaning ). Anyway, the longer this tension is going on Cambodia might lose her territorial integrity to Thailand. So the better way is only the third party´s intervention may help and protect the nation from loss, so the third party [ UN, ICJ, and ASEAN ] is needed and the most importance is that all millitary must be ready to protect our territory against any invasions from Thailand.

Darling, I hope you can understand what I mean in my writing today. As cambodians we have to care of our nation. I want to take this opportunity to dedicate to our brave soilders who devote their red blood and tears of their families for homeland!

I finish my writing. But before saying good night I want to tell you that:
” I promise, you’ll always be in my heart. I love you.”

Only you in my heart,

heng krishna

P.S.

Write to me soon. I’m waiting your letter.

Letter From Phnom Penh:Phnom Penh–Moscow Is Not So Far !

Dear heng krishna,

Hi dear ! How are you ? Darest krishna, at the moment I logged in to this blog and first of all, I saw your letter. I could not read your letter without feeling a pain, not because it gave me a shock, but because on the contrary you are too tender and too generous. While reading that, I couldn’t stop weeping and trembling for some minutes. See ? I’m so weak ! I’m still a child ! But a child only in front of you. / I’m getting a little bit irritated by not having enough time to write to you for quite a while. I’m sorry about this. I hope you’re well and enjoying your life where you are now and I’m sure that you’ve adapted yourself to your college life again. Anyway, my consciousness reminds me that you’re not so fine. You miss family, (and Me ??? ) right ? How can I know, darling ? Actually, I spent my time to read the posts of Chao sorn and Leng. They both are missing their families, Cambodia and friends. In the matter of fact, I understand your feeling krishna. But You have to be strong ! Only you can complete your goals. As for me, I’m now quite all right because of my mental and physical efforts. By mental effort, I mean to try not to complain and devote my time instead to reading; by physical effort, I mean to practice sport in my garden, and I found out that physical practice gives me some refreshing pleasantness. Thus I’m preventing myself from falling into depression. Nevertheless I feel lonely and find my present life quite unsatisfactory. Now I began to concentrate on the books by Virginia Woolf, these days. Her actual life was much more interesting than her novels. In her life she suffered nervous breakdowns many times and attempted suicide a couple of times. If it had not been for her husband, she would have put an end to life much earlier. Her husband advised that she should not bear her own children. And the reference book says that they (Virginia and her husband) were equal partners in their married life.

I am sure that you’re eager to know what is going on in our country, right ?

These fews days more Thai troops were deployed to the border area. Today Deputy prime minister of Thailand will arrive in Phnom Penh to have a talk over the tension between two countries. As I know, key issues in the meeting is included a plan to reduce troops, and talks on the Joint Boundary Commission to try to demarcate the border.

Dear krishna, for my point of view, I don’t think we can find good resolution in the dispute without the third side. I mean, why don’t we try to seek the international court ? What is behind the decision of our government ? What our goverment needs from Thailand ? I, sometimes agree with our people who said that ” Why we need to negotiate with thieves? They steal us. Why we are so polite with them? — Take them to the court, please!”. I really want to know the reason why Samdach Techo Hun Sen did not want to file a complaint to the international court instead of trying to have the useless biliteral talk? Anyway, I always believe that our government spare no effort to serve our national interest. It’s top secret ! National problem can not be told to people except vital reason or circumstance.

Ok, dearest darling krishna ! I finish my letter here. I wish to see your letter as soon as possible.
Believe me, darling ! The distance and the time that stand between us is not the reason that make me change my love from you !

Take care of yourself,

With my best love,

sikar tevie